[ Jessica thinks her heart will beat out of her chest. The girl she saw herself in, whose unreserved admiration and acceptance left her lovestruck within minutes, in whom she saw the possibility of really and truly liking herself, who wanted to understand her more than anything else— she really feels this way? It shouldn't be surprising based on how she acted but she's so afraid of having her hopes dashed again. ]
Do you... really feel that way about me, Himiko-chan? Really?
[ She shivers at Himiko's soft touch. That adorable, carefree giggle in her ear makes her feel like she'll melt. ]
I... you have to tell me. Put it clearly in words, because I'm a dumbass, Himiko-chan.
Jessie-chan... I'm not the kind of girl that does things she doesn't want to do, you know? [ the hand at jessica's hair lowers down, running a fingertip along the shell of jessica's ear. ] That's way too much effort. I'm not gonna lie or force myself to be different. I hate even thinking about that.
[ the fingertip drops down, now, tracing a line along the muscle in jessica's neck. ]
So, if I say I like something, or that I wanna do something... It means I really, really wanna do it. Like... [ down, down, down. her finger lands on jessica's collarbone; she traces it out, snagging the side of jessica's collar along the way. ] If I tell you you're totally my type, that doesn't mean I think you're pretty cute. It means you're reeeally my type. It means you're the kind of girl I think about all bloodied up when I daydream. Like most of the other girls I've had a little crush on.
[ she tugs the finger out - not far, just enough to expose a little more of jessica's neck. a little more of that soft skin. she still doesn't lean in yet, though, continuing- ]
And when I say that I wanna give you a little love bite right now? That means I wanna taste you again, Jessie-chan. I wanna bite down and drink you up, so I can get a little bit closer to you. See? I'm not that tough to figure out~
[ she finally does lean in, exhaling hot and warm onto jessica's neck - but still she stays at a safe distance. only close enough to imply, not close enough to bite. not without permission.
[ Maybe it's because she's the same way, or perhaps in spite of it; either way it's that unshakeable conviction with which Himiko lives her life and embraces her values and desires that Jessica so admires about her (that and she's extremely hot, but personality factors into that too). But that's not it either. She wasn't nearly that strong, no matter what her friends and classmates and Sayo saw in her, and still isn't. She's jealous, but she admires her, and that translates to yearning.
Not that she's aware of any of these subconscious motives right now. It's buried under the sheer intoxicating force of Himiko's presence bearing down on her. She shivers as Himikos fingers trace down her neck to collar, tracing muscle and bone. That affection is so direct and physical and unhesitating. It makes her shiver. ]
O-Oh. Himiko-chan, that... I'm really happy. Really, really happ-— [ Jessica gasps as Himiko exposes more skin, whispers her desire to taste her. ] Aah!
[ She really is happy. Overjoyed to have her affections returned, to find somebody who utterly accepts her, likes every part of her and wants her just as she is. Maybe Sayo had accepted her too, but as bright as her love for her still burns, there was a geography of pain in their relationship, old wounds they were working to mend that still enmeshed them. There was the way her friend had put her up on a pedestal while keeping her own feelings worlds away from her. But Himiko has no history like that. She just purely liked (loved?) Jessica with an intensity she'd never felt before. For all her admiration, she doesn't treat her as anything but an equal, and she's so direct with everything. Jessica knows in that moment that she's truly, helplessly in love. It makes her feel so happy so she could explode.
And when Himiko leans in, asks to drink from her again, taste her again, when that hot breath hits the sensitive skin of her neck, she has to bite her lip to suppress a moan. Much to her embarrassment, she finds herself growing well and truly excited, and in public no less. ]
Yes, Himiko-chan, yes, please! I... m-maybe somewhere with a little less people, though?
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Date: 2022-06-20 07:25 pm (UTC)Do you... really feel that way about me, Himiko-chan? Really?
[ She shivers at Himiko's soft touch. That adorable, carefree giggle in her ear makes her feel like she'll melt. ]
I... you have to tell me. Put it clearly in words, because I'm a dumbass, Himiko-chan.
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Date: 2022-06-21 04:32 am (UTC)[ the fingertip drops down, now, tracing a line along the muscle in jessica's neck. ]
So, if I say I like something, or that I wanna do something... It means I really, really wanna do it. Like... [ down, down, down. her finger lands on jessica's collarbone; she traces it out, snagging the side of jessica's collar along the way. ] If I tell you you're totally my type, that doesn't mean I think you're pretty cute. It means you're reeeally my type. It means you're the kind of girl I think about all bloodied up when I daydream. Like most of the other girls I've had a little crush on.
[ she tugs the finger out - not far, just enough to expose a little more of jessica's neck. a little more of that soft skin. she still doesn't lean in yet, though, continuing- ]
And when I say that I wanna give you a little love bite right now? That means I wanna taste you again, Jessie-chan. I wanna bite down and drink you up, so I can get a little bit closer to you. See? I'm not that tough to figure out~
[ she finally does lean in, exhaling hot and warm onto jessica's neck - but still she stays at a safe distance. only close enough to imply, not close enough to bite. not without permission.
and so she asks: ]
Well? Do I have your permission, Jessie-sama?
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Date: 2022-06-21 07:06 pm (UTC)Not that she's aware of any of these subconscious motives right now. It's buried under the sheer intoxicating force of Himiko's presence bearing down on her. She shivers as Himikos fingers trace down her neck to collar, tracing muscle and bone. That affection is so direct and physical and unhesitating. It makes her shiver. ]
O-Oh. Himiko-chan, that... I'm really happy. Really, really happ-— [ Jessica gasps as Himiko exposes more skin, whispers her desire to taste her. ] Aah!
[ She really is happy. Overjoyed to have her affections returned, to find somebody who utterly accepts her, likes every part of her and wants her just as she is. Maybe Sayo had accepted her too, but as bright as her love for her still burns, there was a geography of pain in their relationship, old wounds they were working to mend that still enmeshed them. There was the way her friend had put her up on a pedestal while keeping her own feelings worlds away from her. But Himiko has no history like that. She just purely liked (loved?) Jessica with an intensity she'd never felt before. For all her admiration, she doesn't treat her as anything but an equal, and she's so direct with everything. Jessica knows in that moment that she's truly, helplessly in love. It makes her feel so happy so she could explode.
And when Himiko leans in, asks to drink from her again, taste her again, when that hot breath hits the sensitive skin of her neck, she has to bite her lip to suppress a moan. Much to her embarrassment, she finds herself growing well and truly excited, and in public no less. ]
Yes, Himiko-chan, yes, please! I... m-maybe somewhere with a little less people, though?