[ Maybe it's because she's the same way, or perhaps in spite of it; either way it's that unshakeable conviction with which Himiko lives her life and embraces her values and desires that Jessica so admires about her (that and she's extremely hot, but personality factors into that too). But that's not it either. She wasn't nearly that strong, no matter what her friends and classmates and Sayo saw in her, and still isn't. She's jealous, but she admires her, and that translates to yearning.
Not that she's aware of any of these subconscious motives right now. It's buried under the sheer intoxicating force of Himiko's presence bearing down on her. She shivers as Himikos fingers trace down her neck to collar, tracing muscle and bone. That affection is so direct and physical and unhesitating. It makes her shiver. ]
O-Oh. Himiko-chan, that... I'm really happy. Really, really happ-— [ Jessica gasps as Himiko exposes more skin, whispers her desire to taste her. ] Aah!
[ She really is happy. Overjoyed to have her affections returned, to find somebody who utterly accepts her, likes every part of her and wants her just as she is. Maybe Sayo had accepted her too, but as bright as her love for her still burns, there was a geography of pain in their relationship, old wounds they were working to mend that still enmeshed them. There was the way her friend had put her up on a pedestal while keeping her own feelings worlds away from her. But Himiko has no history like that. She just purely liked (loved?) Jessica with an intensity she'd never felt before. For all her admiration, she doesn't treat her as anything but an equal, and she's so direct with everything. Jessica knows in that moment that she's truly, helplessly in love. It makes her feel so happy so she could explode.
And when Himiko leans in, asks to drink from her again, taste her again, when that hot breath hits the sensitive skin of her neck, she has to bite her lip to suppress a moan. Much to her embarrassment, she finds herself growing well and truly excited, and in public no less. ]
Yes, Himiko-chan, yes, please! I... m-maybe somewhere with a little less people, though?
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Not that she's aware of any of these subconscious motives right now. It's buried under the sheer intoxicating force of Himiko's presence bearing down on her. She shivers as Himikos fingers trace down her neck to collar, tracing muscle and bone. That affection is so direct and physical and unhesitating. It makes her shiver. ]
O-Oh. Himiko-chan, that... I'm really happy. Really, really happ-— [ Jessica gasps as Himiko exposes more skin, whispers her desire to taste her. ] Aah!
[ She really is happy. Overjoyed to have her affections returned, to find somebody who utterly accepts her, likes every part of her and wants her just as she is. Maybe Sayo had accepted her too, but as bright as her love for her still burns, there was a geography of pain in their relationship, old wounds they were working to mend that still enmeshed them. There was the way her friend had put her up on a pedestal while keeping her own feelings worlds away from her. But Himiko has no history like that. She just purely liked (loved?) Jessica with an intensity she'd never felt before. For all her admiration, she doesn't treat her as anything but an equal, and she's so direct with everything. Jessica knows in that moment that she's truly, helplessly in love. It makes her feel so happy so she could explode.
And when Himiko leans in, asks to drink from her again, taste her again, when that hot breath hits the sensitive skin of her neck, she has to bite her lip to suppress a moan. Much to her embarrassment, she finds herself growing well and truly excited, and in public no less. ]
Yes, Himiko-chan, yes, please! I... m-maybe somewhere with a little less people, though?